worries

My driving test is coming soon, on the 26th of February, 2007. Anxiety and nervousness are getting the better of me as the date draws closer by the seconds. It's my second test since I failed my first test on the 12th of February. I was really devastated after the test on that day because I didn't manage to pass either one of the two test. The driving test consists of two test : the obstacle test ( hill, parking and three-point turn) and the road test. For the obstacle test, I failed my hill test as my car, a kancil reversed after letting off the handbrake at the wrong time. For my road test, I failed on the first junction (what a bad driver I am!) because I've forgotten to pull the handbrake when I stopped the car. A mandatory mistake it seems. What a crap!

So, here I am. Just two more days, and I'll be going through all that again. The long wait is terrible and the whole test could take up my entire day. Please let me pass this time around, I don't want to burden my parents with another rm150 to re-sit the test. I really wondered why it's so expensive. All they have to do is provide me with a car to test, why do they need rm100 for that purpose? (By the way, the other rm50 is the fees for extra class.)

Aside from that, my results day is around the corner, even though the ministry of education has yet to decide the release date for my spm 2006 results. If I'm not mistaken, the highest amount of subject ever taken by a spm candidate last year was 19 subjects. I've only undertaken 11 subjects, what a loser ! Still, I'm rather anxious and worried I would not achieve my expectations. Worries...worries...worries... Life is so full of stress, and I'm just so terrible at handling stress.

Besides that, I'm also having problems with my friends. Personally, I dislike people who are unable to stand on their on feet and be independent. It's alright to ask for support or advice whenever it's appropriate, what are friends for? I'm just very disappointed that one of my friend is over-reliant on me to get his things or agenda done with. I'm not your slave man, you gotta do it yourself! (I won't say elaborate further on this matter) Right now, I'm looking for ways to ditch this so-called friend of mine.

At the moment, I couldn't describe what's in me or my feelings. I might have just walked onto a long and winding path, till sometimes I feel like crying but couldn't bring myself to cry it out. Damn it ! Just damn it !

The interview...

First off, I would like to apologise for not including the background research on the company in my blog. As a matter of fact, I wouldn't want to engage in a legal pursuit if my facts are found to be incorrect. My apologies to all.

Erm, allow me to reiterate the day's event. I had a hard time falling asleep the night before the interview. It's my first scholarship interview, and the first interview with top executives from a high profile company. Guess I might had fallen asleep at around 1a.m. but was forced to wake up at 6.30 a.m. Dark rings around my eyes were very visible, yet there's nothing I can do about it. My problem with dark eye rings have plagued me for the past few years. I'm still finding solutions to overcome it, maybe a lil facial treatment in future. Hehe..

At about 7.10 a.m. , we started our journey to damansara (the location is bangunan malaysian re). Just merely 1o minutes after taking off, we were hampered with a massive traffic congestion along the banting stretch. The interview was scheduled at 8.30 a.m. but I reached there at about 9.00 a.m. Goodness gracious, I was late for my first interview. Fortunately, they understood the dire condition I was in earlier. Or maybe they just made it up, I don't know.

After that, I was briefed about the scholarship ; allowance, conditions etc. It was a one-to-one briefing since I arrived late. Then, I waited for another hour before I was called in for an interview with two executives. Sigh, the interview only lasted for about 10 minutes. There can only be two possibilities
a) My resume was very concise, clear and complete. So, it was unnecessary for them to interrogate me further.
b) I performed horribly and there was no need to waste their precious time to interview me.

Anyway, the results will be informed in late march or early april according to its FAQ website. Alright, that's about all for now.

career and education

Great, I just received a letter from MNRB Holdings Berhad that I'm eligible for an interview session regarding my scholarship application. What a relief! I have been waiting for a reply for more than a month since I last sent in my letter of application. Finally, they are willing to offer me an opportunity or a shot for the scholarship. By the way, my scholarship interview is scheduled to be held next week (13th February, 2007), right after my driving test on the day before the interview.

Now, I barely remember what I wrote in my personal statement and I'm very sure that they will question me on my future career goals, particularly in the field of actuarial science. Though I might want to impress them as much as I can, I'll still have to get past my biggest hurdle ; that is to secure a placement in a matriculation college prior to be awarded this scholarship if I pass the interview.

So, one week, 7 days, 168 hours or 10080 minutes counting down to my interview. what should I do? I'm totally clueless as to what to expect during the interview that might last up to half an hour. "If you fail to plan, then you plan to fail" I know it damn well that it sounds like a cliche, but it's damn true. I guess I need to come up with a plan, but what plan?

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After much thoughts, there are two major tasks to be accomplished.
a) A thorough research on the company's background
b) An in-depth analysis on my choice of course (actuarial science)

That's all for now. In my next post, I'll include a background research on the company. Till then, so long...